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2009-12-31T10:08:00.000-08:00

im celebrating the new year by sitting at home : )
maybe next year than i shall head out and celebrate .
its just not my time yet .
many things to be done right now rather than enjoy .

my blog is like so dead. gotta link more people.
i miss you bro's . hope you guys are having fun out there : )

im sleepy . goodnight!

2009-12-31T09:51:00.000-08:00

countdown countdown countdown!
finally its 2010 !

many things to look forward to this year.
gotta get a better life. but still. daddy's not here with me.
seriously soo bored without him .
i gotta take good care of mummy.
im only left with her and ofcourse my one and only fat karim!

talking about karim . two days ago he went missing .
i just woke up and went finding for him .
he was nowhere to be found at his usual sleeping spot in the store.
nowhere around in the house either.
went outside the house to find him .
afraid he would have been accidentally locked outside the house.
but still couldnt find him .

i went under the block . 3rd floor garden , 2nd floor carpark , and 1st floor carpark .
shouting for his name and stuff.
for like 3 hrs i kept going on searching.
than i decided to try ask my malay neighbour.
she said she saw him outside the house near the gates.
sitting down.
than this stupid chinese neighbour came out KPO2 .
than my malay neighbour ask him.
than that chinese guy say he dont know anything.
at around 5 or 6 my mum came home and found karim locked in the dry riser infront of the chinese guy house, wtf right ??
2nd time already he did this . still can say to me dont know where my cat.
later i lock you and your family in your house okay ?
or maybe just make a small complain for animal abuse.
and you will be paying a 1000 bucks fine .
happy paying than asshole : )

: )

2009-12-28T07:59:00.001-08:00

new blogskin: )

i'll update and relink after work tmr.

OMG!

2009-12-28T06:07:00.000-08:00

i gotta get a new blogskin!

2009-11-27T22:23:00.001-08:00

ive been too busy to update .
busy with family and work.
its been like more than 50 days without daddy at home.
i miss him so much .
life has to move on . and now its just me n mummy at home.
no more time to enjoy . no more playing around.
its time to be serious now.
gotta make some money !

currently working at tengah oil & gas.
the best job i ever had. full of experience.
evcryday work with you can die sia LACKO sissy! hahaha
MON-FRI work . weekends off.
okay what like that ?
after NS i wanna be a diver at this company .
dont have to think abt finding a job after NS . pheeww!

i just wanna change and be a better person from now on .
no more fucking matrep!
in my mind is all abt making money right now! .

i wanna cont my studies . i just dont know how to .
maybe retake o's maybe go ITE ?
i dont know larh .
im smart yet super lazy .

and to my bby girl .
im willing to change okay ?
we both gotta change out attitudes.
i'll do anything for you .
anything to see you smile.

2009-10-08T21:54:00.000-07:00

go on blaming me girl! go on!
all u know is to blog abt me and me and me.
and tell the whole world stories abt me .
i lost a father and all you could do was to show that attitude of yours?
please larh . do u even know in wad lost i am in ?
do u even know im having to be the man of the house at this age .
i dont have siblings like you people do okay.
atleast u would have someone to depend to .
all i had was my father to support me.
and he is already at some other place better than this world.

for once please understand wads going on .
ive got so many things to settle out.
and stop adding pressure to me.
im not gonna be that same old dart who is just gonna be carefree.
its now time i have to make my own decisions .
i gotta use more of helping hands than hands that pull be back .

u could keep saying that im not changed and blah blah blah .
and keep blaming me .
thats all you could do .

cause you think ure the best.
wadever you do is right.

ive realised who i am now and where im standing.
but have you ?

i dont have to blog like you . like a 1000 words novel thats doesnt make's sense.
i'm making it short and simple .

i need you by my side .
to guide me .
to give me that little extra helping hand.
i might have those brains .
but as u know i dont use it in a good way .
i never said all you did was wrong.
ive been wrong all this while . i know .
but im willing to change.